For Des. XMAS gift. posted on AFF too. / BG music: Dalamtian songs

Music BG: Dalmatian playlist

Eunkwang loves attention. He tends to overdo things and it just flows as a natural character out of him. Maybe he needed to tone it down but for now it’s a part of his charms. And when fans want a piece of them, he didn’t need to do what was expected ~ his smile, waves, and all other forms of skinship were given generously. Well, ofcourse with their managers’ consent and limitation, but when he gets to be alone he’d give what he has to offer. Fans, they are an important part of the path he chose.

And there are just two kinds of fan, basing it on his own experience. First, the shy-type who’d forever regret things they didn’t do to get close and second, the hype-type who gets to be scary most times. So, he kind of not expected to actually meet a “calm” fan. He can’t label her as shy nor hype – she’s good in between. She calmly asking for directions and taking a picture of him from a good distance was nice. He can’t quite think of a good word to fit it but NICE is…nice.

He did his routine when they went up on stage to perform: checked if everyone’s in place and ready, gave a knowing look to their manager, and did his stance. But his eyes were roaming, knowing that the anonymous fan girl was somewhere in the crowd, watching. Anonymous- for he forgot to check out her twitter name when she posted his picture. Just maybe, he’s still concerned if she was able to find her way- it’s a foreign country and~~~ he almost missed the cue beat.

He didn’t feel any nervousness, he was just unexplainably excited.


Disappointed.  Not because of their performance, they always do great, but he wasn’t able to see her. There were hundreds of people and she wasn’t the hype-type. Was it her smile? Confidence travelling alone? It wasn’t supposed to be a big deal but he finds her interesting.

And having the rest of the day free, he dragged one of his members to accompany him. They’re not that tired to take the train back home.


Dragging Peniel was the right choice. Eunkwang can easily pacify the kid with bribes of snacks and home cooked American food. Peniel’s comfortable with skinship, less scared of fans, and he honestly needs his English skills. It’s not like he’s going to talk with her, it’s just “just in case” he needs to. And he doesn’t really know why he’s doing this. Good thing, Peniel didn’t ask more as he enjoys the chocolate bars that Eunkwang gave him which were technically from their fans. Eunkang can apologize about it later.

Trolling her twitter account made it easier to know where she was, though she’s not exactly saying where but her posted pictures did. And she was really at their performance earlier; he saw a picture of him doing the new jack swing. He let out a quiet laugh.

Curiosity got him here…and he’s not scared, he’s a duck anyway. Or a monkey. While Peniel’s a dog.


Finally, Eunkwang saw her, surrounded with a couple of friends laughing at whatever was on her camera. Maybe a video of him. He pulled Peniel just in time before the train doors closed and they did pretty well hiding their identities again.

The train was a bit crowded and Eunkwang was able to worm his way closer to them, spying on what they were watching. It was a blurry shot but he recognized the “Wow” dance steps and it was focused on him. Peniel’s no use really since she was talking in a different language with her friends. Eunkwang can catch a few English words, but still doesn’t make sense. But he smiles when he hears his or BToB names plus a giddy action from them.

Should he approach them? Maybe if she was alone, he will. He feels like he was back in highschool trying to get to know a crush.

It wasn’t a long train ride but they already missed their stop and he just gave Peniel an eye-signal “just shut up and I’ll explain later”. Peniel gave him a knowing smile, grinning wild, a tease coming. Eunkwang would take it all later. But for now, they followed them out the train and out the cold Seoul night. Eunkwang and Peniel followed them till the stoplight. Lips curving slightly, laughing at himself and whatever he’s doing. The red light came on and Eunkwang raised his phone for a quick shot.

He knew its better not to approach them. For now. Maybe in the future, a near future he’d get to meet her on a different situation. A better one and not like some creep stalker. He followed them with his eyes until they turned a corner and disappeared. He hailed for a cab and tackled Peniel for his phone for he was already telling the boys about his lil’ adventure.


It was his turn to use their twitter account, though they don’t really have a schedule on it, he hasn’t uploaded anything for a while. Eunkwang chose to upload the picture he took across a street, where their billboard was displayed. He loved the play of the city lights on it and the busy people crossing the streets added flavor.

And as much as fan trolls, fan stalks, fan ninjas (sometimes), Eunkwang, an idol, does that too.

So, knowing she was online was the perfect time to say “Hello” by adding a tweet on the pic: If you’re lost, look for me.”


It wasn’t hard to miss her reply: “LOL. nyeta ako yan eh!”

“AISH!” Eunkwang cursed, hating every translation site being so unhelpful.


(For Des, just had a moment of vice versa thought of your subway experience)

Eunkwang needed to hurry. He’s gone home to visit his parents and now he’s running late for an interview – what’s a group without the leader? Not that he’s full of himself but he needed to control his members, like the 3 maknaes who would be pretty hype and Minhyuk who’d also be too strict, and he’d definitely get a kick if he’s not there.

“Aish.” He sighed.

He took the subway train. It’s not the busy buzz anyway, and most times he’s still unrecognizable without his makeup. A cap and casual clothing will do for a not-so-obvious disguise.

He got in the train, the seats were all taken and a few were standing. He lowered his cap and checked on his mobile phone that had gone off too many times.

He didn’t pay much attention to anyone but a girl that kept on sighing bothered him. He looked up a bit, still trying to conceal his face and observed her.

A foreigner, definitely asian by her features. She was looking on a map and on the train signs, comparing it probably? She was chewing on her lower lip and kept on brushing her hair with her fingers. She then stepped forward towards an old smiling lady and asked about directions. Well, she was asking in English, so she was lightly ignored.

She sighed again and stepped back on the railing she was holding onto. Her facial expressions were now changing from concern, to frustration, to a hint of fear. It was definitely fear when the train stopped on a station. She didn’t step down but clutched the map more tightly.

A good thing he can understand English and can converse passably. It won’t hurt to help and if ever they can’t understand each other, he can ask someone who can speak English fluently then.

He cleared his throat, “Do you need help?”

Of course her initial reaction was to jump back, grip her bag, and be apprehensive. As for his initial response: offended, but it was all clearly natural. He tried to show a lip smile, still covering his eyes.

“Y-yeah.” She replied, maybe hearing a familiar language made her at ease. “I just need to know if I’m still on the right track to get off this train station and get to this location?” She showed the crumpled map and pointed on her destination. It was just around the Music Bank location so he was familiar with it.

“Ah yeah~” Eunkwang nodded, “Yes, this is the right train. I’m getting off on that station too.” And he pointed which streets to take to get to her end.

“Oh, wow.” She let out a relieved sigh and smiled. “Thanks.”

“No problem.” He also smiled, “The next stop is ours.” She nodded.

He felt good with that simplest act of kindness and extended it by leading her to the train map and showed her some easy exits and routes.

“Thank you. Kamsahamnida.” She bowed awkwardly but cutely.

He laughed a little and took a step back, waving once and turned to run up the exit stairs. He looked back when he got on top of the stairs and she was still there, smiling and checking on her phone. Eunkwang shrugged and hailed for a cab.


“Hyung!” Peniel called Eunkwang urgently. “Hyung, look!” Peniel was raising Ilhoon’s iPad and he can see a twitter page on it.

“Yeah?” Eunkwang was trying to figure how to get his bowtie in place. He’s in a mess trying to dress up quickly.

“Did you just take the train?” Peniel raised the iPad to his eye level. “Our account was mentioned and I luckily got to see this picture amidst the crazy tweets.”

Eunkwang was surprised to see his self on the picture, it was on the top of the stairs and he was looking down, almost directly to the one who took the picture. And the twitter pic also had a message: “Thank you for helping me out! Imma cheer on you later on your performance!”

Eunkwang gave a hearty laughed, leaving Peneil confused, but was damn blasted again because of his bowtie.

(not proofread yet)

It was big and scary ~ it’s that green monster again…

 Ilhoon woke up panting. It almost got him in his dreams, its wide finger-less hands about to grasp the whole of him and he was running endlessly for dear life.

He was just glad to wake up but scared to close his eyes again. He pulled the covers up to his chest quietly, curling his body on his bed and hugged his iPad. The light snores of his groupmates made him feel safe.


“Still sleepy, Ilhoonie?” Eunkwang sat beside him on the floor. They haven’t started practice yet but he had been yawning non stop.

“Nightmares again, hyung.” A yawn escaped and he leaned back on the mirrored wall, pulling his knees up to his chin to rest on it.

The leader then placed a hand on the top of his head and massaged it lightly, concern all over his face. “Maybe I should tell this to manager-hyung, no?”

Ilhoon shook his head and managed a tired smile. “I’ll be fine.”

Eunkwang was apprehensive but gave in after seeing an effort for an eye smile from him, “Okay. But I’ll be watching you.”

Ilhoon nodded and dozed off.


It got him this time, a hand and a leg wrapped up in a gooey-sticky mess. He was screaming for help but to no avail. He cried, kicked, tried to pull himself~ and the green monster was nearer…step by step…

He screamed out loud, waking the other members. Eunkwang helping him to get down from his bunk to his own bed.


The next night, Eunkwang gave him some hot milk to help him sleep. He let him stay on his bed again and the others were inviting him too.

“Ilhoonie, you can watch with us up here on my bed.” Peniel invited him while Sungjae was trying to figure out where to squeeze Ilhoon on Peniel’s pretty normal-messed up bed.

“I’m good here.” Ilhoon finished his glass of milk and settled himself between Eunkwang and the wall.

“Yah Peniel, lower down the volume of that movie if you can’t use earphones.” Minhyuk knocked on his bed to warn Peniel.

“Sure, hyung.” Peniel answered but not really bothered to do it.

“What are you watching anyway?” Minhyuk then asked.

“Paranormal 3!” Sungjae exclaimed from the top bunk, causing Hyunsik and Changsub to shush him. “Sorry!”

“But you already saw that yesterday?” Eunkwang said, watching Ilhoon trying to get some sleep.

“It was part 2, hyung.” Sungjae answered.

“I see.” The leader said. “Still, lower the volume. The sounds creep me out.”

And as soon as the lights were dimmed and it was only Peniel’s laptop as the base of a nightlight, the other members were soon on dreamland.

But as for Ilhoon, it was another visit from the green-gooey monster.


“Peniel, you guys were too loud…again.”Minhyuk complained. They were all on their way to an interview and Ilhoon was the only one slacked mouth, dozing off.

“Sorry hyung, but it was really scary!” Sungjae then tattled excitedly.

Then a realization hit their leader. “How many nights have you been watching scary movies?” Eunkwang asked his dongsaengs.

“For a week now?” Peniel said, “We’re watching Walking Dead in between…”

Eunkwang was silent for a minute. “I got it.”


It’s almost a week that Ilhoon’s been having nightmares. As soon as the bad dream starts he won’t be able to get back to sleep and that also makes Eunkwang miss some more hours of rest since he needed to look out for Ilhoon.

But for tonight he’s positive they’d get some decent sleep.

“You two what are you watching tonight?” Eunkwang asked Peniel and Sungjae as they settled on Peniel’s bunk.

“The last two episode for Walking Dead, why?” Sungjae asked.

“Watch this first.” The leader handed them a Pororo video.

“Seriously, hyung?” Peniel was about to laugh but changed his mind, seeing Eunkwang’s eyes getting smaller. “Okay.” He then set up the CD and the Pororo theme song started playing.

Ilhoon was already sprawled on Eunkwang’s  bed, cuddling his knees up to his chest. And even in his sleep he looked tired, dark circles much morevisible without make-up.

“What are you up to?” Minhyuk asked, standing beside their leader, looking at Ilhoon as well.

“Wait.” Eunkwang simply answered. Peniel and Sungjae also looked at Ilhoon who was now starting to straighten his body. Hyunsik and Changsub oblivious to whatever’s happening since they’re already asleep.

The Pororo charaters started singing again and Eunkwang instructed Peniel to turn the volume of his laptop louder.

They were surprised when Ilhoon responded, his worried-look started to disappear and a small smile forming on his sleep. Cheeks puffing and lips continued twitching to a smile.

Eunkwang breathed, “Finally.” He and Minhyuk simultaneously looked at the culprits that caused them some sleepless nights. The other two apologizing loudly causing Changusb to curse them and Hyunsik throwing pillows.


Peniel and Sungjae had been apologizing non-stop till the next day while Ilhoon was back being bubbly and naggy.

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