Maybe I just love you guys so much to the point I feel like I'm being tortured. Don't make sense, right?
It's like missing ya'll when I haven't even met you in person. It pains me so much that I can't watch any of your perf. So near, yet so far. I can make a way but it would be unfair in the other aspect of my life. Too unfair, really.

I don't really like this feeling. Really, 그만...제발.
credits to A YO CHEN / Original version >>>>>>DRU HILL- HERE WITH ME<<<<<<
...and I blame this perf. The vocal line performing an English jazz song. My Changsub. Just too great and sexy in black (though it looked like a jumpsuit at first). I was really anticipating Changsub and Eunkwang's parts. Again, they never disappoint and even had those low-growling voices. Damn. 

The right time will come for me to see ya'll. Not yet this time but hopefully this year. Maybe around July, to commemorate my first year of calling myself a Melody. :) Nah.

I hope I can meet you guys casually, bumped in the streets, telling you "Hi, I'm Andrea, a noona-fan from the Philippines...will always support you. You guys are really talented and great, keep it up. Stay humble. Fighting!...I won't keep you long~annyeong!" BUT IN REALITY I know I'll be like~~~ frozen/starstruck and will only say: "Hi! HWAITING! SARANGHAE!" 

Anyway, going back. I'm tortured. But I still smile, that's the life of a FAN. I'll have to wait patiently and stretch it more.

Pardon Noona's Drama.

TRIPPIN' ~ Vocal Lines parts on the song.

HERE WITH ME

(CHANGSUB HUMMING)

HYUNSIK

Never before in my life through every hello every goodbye 
have i ever fell so far so soon.. girl it's you 

SUNGJAE
A beauty you are in my eyes and every touch feels so right 
it's taking me deeper into you 

CHANGSUB
And i would give my time my soul my love my everything 
and there is not a no one no where nothing that can compete 
cause you mean the world to me 

EUNKWANG
take away my car take away my clothes 
take away my fame take away my dough 
and i'll be OK without it 
if you right here with me 

ALL(DAEBAK HARMONY!)
take away my house take away my jewels 
my material things that can take that too 
i won't shed a tear without it 
if you're right here with me 

HYUNSIK
So many things i never knew about myself 
so many things i never felt in no one else 
you have shown me and it's only with you baby 

CHANGSUB (THE SEXY GROWL)
cause i know true happiness 
in you i've found 
i never felt and i've been around 
if i had the world to give you 
you know that's what i would do 

EUNKWANG (AH-ADLIBS)
And i would give my time my soul my love my everything 
and there is not a no one no where nothing that can compete 
cause you mean the world to me 

ILHOON - RAP PART

GROWLING EUNKWANG~and effin high notes.

HYUNSIK
Listen girl.. 
say i'll be OK if you're right here with me 
i'll give any and everything just to make you see 

EUNKWANG
though I've been to an altar before you 
it's your love that makes me complete , do you believe

ALL AND JUST THE PERFECT HARMONY
take away my car take away my clothes 
take away my fame take away my dough 
and i'll be OK without it 
if you right here with me 

take away my house take away my jewels 
my material things that can take that too 
i won't shed a tear without it 
if you're right here with me 

EUNKWANG
girl your love is all i need...
 
I thought Changsub's done...but he's not. I'm writing this entry and he's still tweeting. Thanks to googletrans for hints and ideas but his selcas were more important for me. 


I haven't opened my @sheotako twitter account for sometime, then it's you welcoming back. Love You boy. Lately, I've been so tired and right now Im going to sleep taking your pictures in my dreams. LOLs and thank you for updating today. i was busy with my birthday boy hyukjae yesterday :)

You have a great day dearest.  Have fun and keep on inspiring. 
THANKS TO @keumbeum0816 for the translation of his tweets. I really appreciate all the Changsub bias people out there!
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1st tweet: I have returned!
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2nd tweet: everyone wake up! You need to go to school! *laser eyes
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3rd tweet: I'm sending a picture so u can open ur eyes / / / 4th tweet: I lied
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5th tweet: I lied about lying. my eyes look tired
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6th tweet: Taiwan melodies! Did u sleep well? U will get to see us soon.
 
DENIED. VISA was denied. It rang in me but then was able to let it go immediately. I don't feel any frustrations and shizz but "SAYANG" since I should be travelling with one of my bestfriends in KPop. Oh Well. Not yet the time, I guess. But I could have appreciated it more if they  gave a complete deet on why I was denied. Denied to enter the land of my boys. LOL. 

My purpose of entry: tour/watch a concert
Here was the reason why I was denied: You failed to prove strong economic and family ties to the home country.

Sorry, I wasn't rich enough or my kind of job ain't stable? LOL
It's sad not to see you (BTOB) for your First Anniversary. The past year was really nice. Knowing you boys, making me happy...sigh. Anyway, I would still want to see you this year. I don't know how or where but I'll try to make a way for you to come here in the Philippines. I'm serious about it.

Please be good to your Arian-noona (@urB2TYfulMelody). She's gonna be travelling alone and got gifts for you. Especially for Peniel! You lucky kid! And as for Changsub...I don't have the will to get you my gift for now. Next time, I will though. I really wanted to hand it personally. 

AND!

Arian was the one who brought me into your fandom, treat her nice or I'd rob a bank, go there and scold ya'll. :) 
Anyway, it's a bit sad but I'm just glad the tension of waiting for that VISA was over and done. I'll be more that prepared next time. OR JUST FREAKING COME HERE OR SOMEWHERE THAT DOESN'T REQUIRE VISAs AND TELL IT LIKE 4 MONTHS PRIOR SO I CAN GET DISCOUNTS. *Breathes*

I love ya'll. Happy First Year MY BToB.

And this song really ended my sad feelings. Changsub Saranghae!

Be Alright

I'll just freaking see you SOON! YOU BABO!YOU CHANGSUB! MY CHANGSUB!
 
AN:  This would be better expressed in my own language but there’s a tinge of hope that BToB will stumble in this blog and Peniel would have the kindest of the kindest heart to read and translate this for Changsub. One can hope. AND  for the record, I am a CHANGSUB bias and I love BToB, so please don’t twist my words when I praise Changsub so much. Again. I LOVE BToB.
Good question. Well… you know… Changsub is… 몰라.

He’s special. Literally, figuratively…your pick. He’s someone unexpected but I’m thankful for now.  You see, I’m into genius rappers, strong jaw lines, fierce eyes… and Changsub’s nowhere near that in one look. FIRST LOOK!

I should be into Minhyuk or any of the three rappers, I was at first though, didn’t really have one person to stan but Changsub started to grow on me. Awww. He got me here. Not on this picture really but when a friend said he has tattoo. One can be a bad boy.
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DON'T GET DEFEATED FROM YOUR SELF. What we think his tatts says.
And of course his crazy antics, being a 4D, and whatever effin stuffs he does with his mouth. Yes, I'm fixated with his mouth. Thousands of  ******* thoughts I want to do with that.
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Those lips. I’m fixated with it. His fault.
Let me eat my words. My  Changsub can definitely RAP. Freestyle. AND Sorry for ignoring you at first Changsub. :')
Nonsense freestyle Rap: MTV DIARY CUT
Anyway, on a serious note, Changsub is someone worthy of one’s time. I can spend hours getting to know more about him. BUT you cannot make me sign up on any café’s…it gives me headache.

Changsub’s really talented and I can feel how serious he is with his profession. He’s born to perform and it shows how fun and different he is on stage. Listening/watching to his pre-debut perfs was interesting, his voice was so much deeper before. I’m being for real when I say he’s really good and fascinating to watch but well, his looks. Not the typical “idol” type but Koreans work wonders. 

Some of Changsub Pre-debut perf list:
BAD GIRL
단발머리
사랑합니다
미안합니다
It's just that he radiates his passion with his every performance and I'm just sucked and stuck with him now. He can SING, RAP, DANCE and be crazy without really caring much about his look. 


Still, I can’t help but be worried. Maybe he still has those insecurity issues but him being 4D covers it up good. There were some vids I got to watch and I just want to warp beside him, pull him into a hug and whisper “You’re doing great.” ---that’s how emotional I am when it comes to people I adore.

*BREATHES*
There could be hundreds or thousands of reasons why I like Changsub. Maybe a bit of a cliche..but I don't care now.  Liking him is not just because of his tattoo, or his randomness, his freestyle raps which says his really smart, his 4Dness... I like him because he keeps me happy. I hate and love whatever he does at the same time. He's irritatingly adorable when he has his own world on their shows, he's confusingly sexy when he dance even though he ruins some with his pouts, and more... he's SPECIAL AND INTERESTING. I'll end here for now.
OPEN LETTER TO CHANGSUB.

YA! 바보! 사랑해요!
What's with you that I'm constantly hooked up? What's with you that I always come back feeling guilty for liking someone else? What's with you that it'so hard to just share you even with friends? What's with you really?
LOL. Dont' take it seriously though. 


But I'm a serious supporter of you and BToB. Not just another fan and no way am I be a part of the bandwagon. Just live your dream and i'll be here supporting.


I would really wish to meet ya'll soon someday. I wish I could directly hand you the stuffs I'm working hard for. I wish to hug you once or even just shake your hand, but i'll go for the first one. 


I wish you health. happiness. success. love.


And I'll be forever a noona-fan, ready to protect ya'll boys.


fr: sHEOTAko
 
I have a lot in mind and it includes BToB. Here's my list for just the BToB stuffs and they're somewhere on the priority list:

A Birthday Essay for Changsub.
Penielism related stuffs.
Part-Time, Over Qualified remaining chapters.
Changsub's Kiss updates.
Think of Changsub < This one is a given though. LOL


I love this kind of life. But I don't have time~~~as much as I want to make time I'm sacrificing my sleep time and health. I'm no longer the young one who can keep up with no sleep. :( <<SAD FACT. But I'm trying my best. :) BToB's my source of fun and energy. ALL THE LOVE.
THIS IS SO ME RIGHT NOW.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
 
Why did you deactivated your account? :( It was fun looking at your timeline...hope you'd be back soon.
 
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source: @codebravo_
 
We are meant to be another time another life
Possibly, probably you would be mine
Can you get away, get away, can you get away
I wanna go go where you are


~SWEET DREAMS/MFBTY~
been away over the weekend and i missed you so much. :)
 
It was Esort's birthday. *THROWS CONFETTI*

I woke up from a very deep slumber out of tiredness to see my timeline invaded by Esort's birthday hangover* tweets. I'm not sure why I get excited when I see Esort on my twitter timeline and MC강 on my Facebook timeline. Prolly, I just want to be updated with their lives? Hear or see news they are with  Minhyuk and one big happy Sporty Dogs Fam? IDK.  (*hangover's just a term) 

Here was the last of his tweets and it gave me some thump in my heart: 
I know I'm in a fangirl mode for them boys again. I can't help it. Thanks to them I'm into BToB now. Check my previous postS here: SPORTY DOGS

I'll be really looking forward to that last tweet Esort. I'll keep watch. 
Happy Birthday again~ 생축!
AND...
Finally, sportydogs in the house. 꽁, 쭌, 혁 간만이다
(c: MC강FB)
 
BToB. Enough said.

But really, I’m talkative, so here I go.

One of the best(EST) thing that happened to me for year 2012 was becoming a Melody. A proud MELODY to be exact.

It was a crazy ride, lots of BToB feels since I became a fan and till now- every sleepless nights were worth it.

This fandom is overwhelming though it’s barely a year. But I’m happy that the boys were recognized immediately. They’re too good to be ignored.

OVERALL PACKAGE. From looks to talents to extra charms. AND THEY’RE REALLY GOOD PERFORMING LIVE EVEN.

For now, I’m looking forward to what 2013 holds for BToB and the melodies. I know I’ll be having lotsa heartaches from these boys as well but I love them too much to drop this fandom. It’s been great so far and the people I meet here are just awesome. AND I love that some of the people I spazz with are my friends for years now.

A promise I can keep for them this year: I’m still the noona who will SUPPORT and PROTECT them. Spending more years with BToB and the Melodies!

HAPPY 2013! Good Health and more Blessings for everyone.

GREAT PERF TO END 2012 and START 2013!
A COLORFUL YEAR!


sheotako, Born to Beat, B to B, btob, minhyuk, peniel, ilhoon, hyunsik, changsub, eunkwang, sungjae, rappers