My BAD. I was too distracted and cannot even track what day and date it was. 

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY OUR DEAR BTOB. I really want to get all emotional and pour out whatever feels I have for you guys but right now, honestly, I'm just all smiles. I feel: HAPPINESS.

I'm lucky and glad to have known ya'll. I'm sad, really sad, that my Visa was denied to come to Korea. I really wanted to see you with my friend Arian (she's there by the way and already saw some of you). I wanted to be there for your first anniversary. Just say a quick "Hwaiting" or "Thank you" or even "Saranghae"....

I'm honestly like a big sister (to some of you) and just ready to protect and support ya'll. ALL THE WAY even in the meanest highway. You guys brought joy in my stressful life. You guys make our every spazzing and anticipation worth it. You...ahhh....are breathes of fresh air.

I know I'll get to see ya'll someday. And I'm praying everyday that I'll get to sit and talk with ya'll. Even the simplest conversation will do but it's not bad to dream it'll be over a cup of coffee too. LOLS. Wishful thinking.

Yo eunkwang, get your act together you adorkable leader. most of the times i forgot you're the leader, you duck. 

minhyukkie, i wish there would be more opportunity for you to show the Heota side. you're more than just a pretty face and the world needs to hear more of your freestyling mind.

hyunsik, keep on smiling, you talented hunk. your smiles are just viral.

ilhoon, brat. you're still adorbs but yeah, i love you brat.

sungjae, *laughs like you*. don't grow up quickly. please.

peniel, peniel, peniel. I'm glad more doors of opportunity opening for you. keep it up and stay humble. PENIELISM  will always support you.

AND TO MY CHANGSUB. just be yourself. :)


THANKS YOU BTOB. MORE YEARS WITH THE MELODIES. TURN TO YOUR LOYAL SUPPORTERS FOR INSPIRATIONS. DON'T MIND THE STRESSORS.

DENIED. VISA was denied. It rang in me but then was able to let it go immediately. I don't feel any frustrations and shizz but "SAYANG" since I should be travelling with one of my bestfriends in KPop. Oh Well. Not yet the time, I guess. But I could have appreciated it more if they  gave a complete deet on why I was denied. Denied to enter the land of my boys. LOL. 

My purpose of entry: tour/watch a concert
Here was the reason why I was denied: You failed to prove strong economic and family ties to the home country.

Sorry, I wasn't rich enough or my kind of job ain't stable? LOL

It's sad not to see you (BTOB) for your First Anniversary. The past year was really nice. Knowing you boys, making me happy...sigh. Anyway, I would still want to see you this year. I don't know how or where but I'll try to make a way for you to come here in the Philippines. I'm serious about it.

Please be good to your Arian-noona (@urB2TYfulMelody). She's gonna be travelling alone and got gifts for you. Especially for Peniel! You lucky kid! And as for Changsub...I don't have the will to get you my gift for now. Next time, I will though. I really wanted to hand it personally. 

AND!

Arian was the one who brought me into your fandom, treat her nice or I'd rob a bank, go there and scold ya'll. :) 

Anyway, it's a bit sad but I'm just glad the tension of waiting for that VISA was over and done. I'll be more that prepared next time. OR JUST FREAKING COME HERE OR SOMEWHERE THAT DOESN'T REQUIRE VISAs AND TELL IT LIKE 4 MONTHS PRIOR SO I CAN GET DISCOUNTS. *Breathes*

I love ya'll. Happy First Year MY BToB.

And this song really ended my sad feelings. Changsub Saranghae!

OPO DARATING AKO. THINK POSITIVE NGA EH. PUNYETA KA. DAHIL SAYO KAHIT WALA NAKO MAKAIN DIYAN SA KORYA PUPUNTA PARIN AKO. DAPAT LANG MAKUROT MAN LANG KITA KUNG HINDI AKO MAGKAROON NG LAKAS NANG LOOB NA YAKAPIN KA. HAHAHA. 

ADIK MODE LANG SA TAAS NG STRESS KO NGAYON. GRABE KAYO.