Three nights and four days…

I woke up with severe stomach ache, passed out, and woke up again super dizzy and chilling and other stuffs. Luckily my brother was there and our neighbors were able to bring me to the hospital. Nothing wrong with all those blood tests and more tests but the doctors took into account that my body made involuntary things when I passed out, and since nobody saw it, we cannot verify I had seizures but it’s the only possibility.

I’m to be discharged later and will do cranial MRI and EEG as an outpatient. Right now, I’m thankful to God I’m alive.

My body had already screamed its tired but I willed my mind to do more. I did work overtimes (pre-shifts and post-shifts), still met up with friends and more. Mind over body works but our bodies could still betray us and shut down automatically.

My bad. But. I needed the money. Bad.

I need to pacify my family and treat myself to my expensive vice, KPop concerts.

It’s my only way to relieve stress.

I won’t promise I will stop doing overtime but I will lessen it.

*

Anyway, I haven’t celebrated dear Changsub’s birthday. I even moved the date with my friends to Sunday, so just I can get a bit of a rest but I’m spending time here at the hospital already.

At the least I had a cup of Happy Lemon on Feb. 26. But I was extremely looking forward to cheesecakes, Frostings’s cupcakes and Chef Noodle’s noodle…badly. I ended up porridge, banana, and apple every meal. I cheat though; the doctor didn’t really hold back my diet.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY  CHANGSUB. 
Be more crazy.

Stay healthy and remember to love what you’re doing because it’ll always reflect withal things you’re doing.


It’s Peniel’s birthday soon. Then BToB’s anniversary.

More reason to get well already.        

      
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Thanks for the link Yan. I’m a BigBang fan and HaruHaru’s a fave song.

 
 
KISS ME DARLING BABY~~~

Setting the mood right since I haven’t updated this page for…seems like forever. And I’m just excited to let my thoughts out about our boys.

I missed them. I’m missing them.

February’s just an awesome BTOB month and their comeback was just on the right timing. Personally, my February’s heavy (financially and work related shizz), so I’m thanking BToB for these new songs.

So, how is the Love Month also my BToB’s month? *It’s my POV*

THREE THINGS. I was able to finally see them perform live last February 2; the COMEBACK MINI ALBUM; and my bias’s Birthday. YUP, starting the year right with BToB.

I haven’t finished my fan account when they were here for the DKFC2 concert, and I think I won’t be able to finish it. Well, bits and pieces, I remember I called a friend, crying, when I finally saw them in the flesh while we were welcoming them at the airport. I got to fully see Ilhoon, Minhyuk and Changsub. I laughed when I remembered how much we want to pinch Ilhoon’s face—yes, its pinch-able. No special moments for me but it was more than enough. Two years of waiting was too long. Then I was just in frenzy during the concert night, they were first up to perform and I was all over the place, literally, running back and forth. I was with Des first, and when the VCR came up showing them I was screaming. I think I surprised the bouncer in front of me.

I was in a good distance, not too near, but not far. In a span of 30-minutes (or less), many things had happened. I was singing, taking them all in. Looking for Changsub but was too excited and checking them all out. I can’t help but stare at Minhyuk, he caught my attention at the airport, he was just too gorgeous and we can’t deny he has this certain charms that would just pull you in… it was his eyes. Yeah, his eyes. Though Sungjae was the one who attracted non-Melodies the most. Then, we also had a friend to whom we ask a favor of taking pictures of Peniel for the site, she didn’t know who was Peniel and again, me and Arian were all over the place, hugging, fangirling. It was really funny that she had to ask a stranger who Peniel was until we were at her side again.

I was just a happy and proud noona-fan. Seeing my boys for the first time with my Melody friends was just the cherry on top. And our other friends (non-melodies) were greeting and telling us how good they were ~ PROUD MAMAS. :P

I haven’t gotten over them yet but here comes the comeback album… and it’s a first for me being impatient. They released snippets and teasers…but I want the full songs already.

And what got us really excited was the album track lists. Team One Sound (still a fan on One Way), the boys a part of writing the lyrics, the division, the song titles…

We have expectations as well, like having more HEOTA than Minhyuk and Peniel having more lines. But we never doubt that it’s going to be another great album, though Press Play was a benchmark for me.

So, here comes the MV release and the tracks uploaded illegally. I LOVE IT.

I was supposed to be taking advantage of my off-the-phone time and get some sleep since we were just in a transition but also having an access in our office WI-FI made me choose to spazz quietly. Yep, I was restraining myself since I have my workmates sleeping around me. 

Well, the girls in the MV didn’t bother me. It was funny how people reacted to it, I understand their point but I don’t know, the girls in the background were…just a part of the background. Remember Minhyuk kissing a girl in Irresistible Lips? That’s some lip-lock action right there. While these girls, it was obvious they’re just gonna be partying around them. And cmon, BToB are boys~ it’s gross seeing men dancing behind them doing those sexy dances really (pun intended!). Anyway…

I don’t really see ‘new’ images but they all look FRESH. I love Changsub’s permed hair. Their vocal parts were really nice, specially the high notes, damn my Changsub’s notes. Minhyuk, that kid was H to the O. T. one. HEOTA baby in it. Sungjae, did really looked like InGook. And man, Eunkwang – tell me why you so becoming handsome?

The boys seemed like they had fun in the MV and I so wanted BTS. I know they’ve released it already but I can’t find time to watch yet.

AND SO, the ALBUM…can’t you make a full one yet?

I love all the songs but my top ones are HELLO and HELLO MELLO. Too much fun and energy in it. 

When I heard the first few notes of HELLO, I knew I’m in-love with it. I’d also love to hear the demo from Peter and Sky. It’s just too giddy and no kidding when I say it lifts my mood in an instant.

As per HELLO MELLO *singing the lines now* - my jaw hurts for smiling too much. Hello *hello* Hello *hello* Mello… I’m getting more and more used to Ilhoon’s style of rapping, the tone of his voice is just unique. I mean since TOP (BigBang), the deep voice had been a trend but there were just too much artist now. It seemed like they’re automatically the rappers for having low voices. Well, as for the THREE RAPPERS of BToB, they’re all different. Give it few more years, Ilhoon will be one of the top recognized rapper in K-Pop. He’s being led to that direction anyway. 

Minhyuk, Heota, Minhyuk – he’s comfortable in this field. He’s an MC, not just a rapper. Enough said.

PENIEL. DEAR PENIEL. You making noona giddy with those LINES. Yes, yanji-noona was right, it was CHEESY but sweet. And it was nice hearing you having more lines dear.

BTOB is just one of the few artist that can make me cry. And with that MELODY song, thank you for playing with my emotions again.

The whole album was just worth the wait and I hope the boys get more recognition. We can’t deny how talented the BTOB members are and how perfect they all seemed to be in group.

I’m just glad their back.

***Thinking of making a BTOB STARTER Part ii…I’m not sure if the first one helped some but I’m thinking of making this new one to help and coax my non-Melody friends to give BToB a shot in their playlist. I’m confident with my boys.

 
 
My day was just extremely~~~ mind tiring. I’m still having a hard time sleeping, then almost afraid of eating with anything oily when those were the only food at home (almost collapsed from eating oatmeal only), then I’m into sending entry after entry for Channel [V]’s contest to see Epik High live in Bangkok, then gone out for my ‘diet’ grocery list – good thing I had dinner with a friend/it’s nice to see familiar faces -, then when I was on my way home I read some sad news for an international site I’m handling for my most fave group, then I have too many stuffs to do with an event for YG fanclubs, then some more for SJ, then….wow… I need to breathe.

Anyway, I was in tears while I was on the jeepney ride back home. I felt like losing family when I read that news. It’s quite sad---hopefully this can end well. If it can’t be fixed—I just hope we all part ways in good terms. We supported the same group after all. We knew that group long before people supported them, and even judged them badly at first. Anyway, I’m not making sense. I was just devastated. YUP.

Then it hit me --- I wonder how you boys cope up with this kind of situation? At that moment, I didn’t have someone to talk to, good thing I had this song recently added on my playlist. Mighty Mouth always makes me smile with their upbeat songs. Just wanted to share it to you.., hopefully not but just incase somebody feels the way I’m feeling right now-enjoy Mighty Mouth.

Love yah BTOB!

 
 
HEY, ITS MINHYUK FEELS FOR THREE DAYS NOW.  IT WAS BECAUSE OF THE SONGS BELOW. I JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH LISTENING TO THE WHOLE OTOKAZE PLAYLIST AND FOR SOME REASON THE SAMPLERS HERE WERE THE ONES THAT REALLY GOT ME LOST IN HIS MUSIC AND (NOT SO) SURPRISINGLY THINK OF MINHYUK.


MINHYUK LIKES HIPHOP (OBVIOUSLY) AND I THINK YAN IS RIGHT, WE SAGGIS (SAGITTARIUS) KNOWS WHAT OTHER SAGGIS LIKE, INSTINCT, NATURALLY. I DON'T EXACTLY THINK HE'D LOVE THESE BUT I REALLY FEEL HE WON'T HATE IT. OR I'M JUST THINKING HE SUITS IT... ANYWAY, THE BEATS MADE ME THINK OF THE KID.


I'M STILL WONDERING WHY MINHYUK WASN'T MY BIAS. HE FITS ALL DESCRIPTIONS WHEN IT COMES TO MY KPOP BIASES. I WONDER WHY I WAS SO HOOKED WITH CHANGSUB (WHEN HE ONLY GIVES ME SEVERE HEADACHE AND SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT [IN A GOOD WAY]).


OH WELL, THAT DOES NOT MATTER NOW. BUT IT JUST GOT ME ~~~ I CELEBRATE MY ONE YEAR AS A FULL PLEDGE MELODY THIS MONTH AND THE FIRST ONE I REALLY FOLLOWED WAS MINHYUK. MAYBE I'M JUST GOING BACK TO THE ROOTS. 


ALL THE LOVE FOR BTOB!



I BADLY WANT A COPY OF OTOKAZE'S ALBUM...I'LL FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET ONE SOON.
 
 
So, here was the convo yesterday afternoon. We've been waiting for Peniel's song cover and I'm just glad he did a Verbal Jint...and it's just right that he did it with Sungjae, knowing Verbal Jint's featuring were always the soulful ones (if not hiphop with artists).
I wasn't able to watch it yesterday and even early this morning (2AM), my internet connection was acting up. Anyway, as soon as I had it up~ checked a few notifications and messages, the video was on buffer...

and then...
It was heart clecnching, heart breaking, gut busting, mixed emotions reaction.

Hearing our dear Peniel rap, full length~ was just A to the yo-some. He rarely gets the chance to do so~ so it's a moment. Though, there were misses? But not that obvious! He reminds me of Nelly, doing the stop-note thing...there's someone he reminds me of so much also, but I can't still figure out who. And it's a good thing, 'cause he is his own..our PENTASTIC PENIEL. English to Korean to English. He sounds comfortable now. PROUD OF OUR PENIEL.

BUT...

Sungjae. Not again. He got me on his first note. That kid's eyes were the highlight, the emotions were flawless. And his voice, was so clear and neat. So young and still have a long way to run.

Damn boys, you made me sad. Though the song is for positivity ~ if i'm your girl, I'd be more than lucky. But hey!I ain't dreaming of that~ I just so wanted to be your noona. FYI.

Won't say much now, I'm just savoring this awesome gift from you. Can't wait for the others. Minhyuk~ can you do Epik High? Leesang? Dynamic Duo? OH! A SUPREME TEAM COVER!

:)
 
 
I honestly don’t know what’s been happening with you guys for the past week or so. I was just told that it was about sasaeng fans and all? If there is more, I don’t know.  Sighs.

And as much as I want to know/search what’s really bothering you boys, I’d rather not. It’s not that I don’t care…it’s better this way. It’ll just bring me emotional stress without really knowing the real reason why. Rumors or not, I’m sorry but I just won’t bother. I’d rather not be the one to comment, so this would just hopefully stop soon. I’ll just spam you guys with love and stupid things to make you smile.

But yes, I'm worried. :)

I don’t know how much this “problem” is affecting you all but listen to your millions of fans: WE ARE HERE SUPPORTING YA’LL.

 Well, this kind of things are inevitable -  and it would really depend on you attitude on how you going to handle such. It goes for both artists and fans. I guess just get something to learn from it and be better.

Anyway, I just miss you all. We have something brewing up for you boys. I’m helping out kids to prepare something for you and I hope this goes well.
Sharing you a song I've been listening to for the past few days. I know it's got a mellow beat - I'm into calming my self anyways, health wise. i posted my thoughts and feels for this in FB : Just one of the few songs where I tend to get lost in the music. Just one of the few when I wish time would stop and music never ends. Sucked in a trance state for a few minutes - felt like an eternity of calmed bliss. ONLY EPIK HIGH can do this to me.
You take care of yourselves now. Be healthy. 
 
 
I honestly want to be selfish. And it’s really ironic.

See, I want the best for ya’ll. More shows, more gigs, more exposure, stardom to its highest level…but I don’t want more people following you, more fanclubs rising for you, more dramas in this fandom~ aish. Not yet, juseyo.

Maybe because I haven’t seen you in person, I haven’t talked to you yet. Or I haven’t given my best or I want to be noticed. Every fans’ sentiment really. So don’t hate me.

***

You boys are my happy pill and I would want to say goodbye for now, maybe, just for this month? I can’t stay away from you guys too long. But I need a rest ~ too many fandom tasks from other fanclubs (yes, I’m handling quite a few like Epik High PH) and honestly, you guy distract me (don’t take it negatively). Once I hear something about you, I just flip and be stuck on you. I don’t need that now. Responsibilities. I have to take you down from my priority list for now.

Damn.

I’ll try my best to manage my time but yes, I have to make sacrifices but this does not judge me as a bad Melody. I got your back. You know.
..and yeah, ILHOON an effin chicken. made me laugh so much.
 
 
THIS BREAKS MY HEART. HINDI KO ATA AFFORD TO. IIYAKAN KO NALANG MUNA ULIT. THEN BAHALA NA. BAKA MAULANAN NG GRASYA.

GUSTO KO NA KAYO MAKITA NANG MATAPOS NA. BASTA. EWAN. AYOKO NA NGA.

#DESPERATE
 
 
I WANT TO SEE YOU IN ONE OF YOUR PRESS PLAY EVENT. WHY IS IT HARD FOR ME TO SEE YOU GUYS? HOW CAN I SEE YOU? I DON'T NEED TO BE THAT UPCLOSE, ALL I WANTED IS TO SEE YOU PERFORM LIVE ON STAGE. I WANT. I NEED?

I do wish for ya'll to come here in the Philippines, it'll be much affordable for me and we can shower you with all the stuffs you want. But I'm more than ready (mind and soul first, not financially yet) to fly wherever country (w/o VISA) just to see ya'll. I'd rather dish out money than having you guys here in my country where more of the fans are really trigger happy. BUT! you should understand, Philippine fans are not all that rich, even the likes of me whose got a job already ~ we need atleast a couple of months to get ready. The concert tickets here are just way too expensive, prolly because of the taxes and all.
Why am I even ranting that. hahaha
ANYWAY, I wanted to congratulate the SONG, MV and that first performance. THE CHOREO WAS JUST EXCEPTIONAL. me and my words, really. It was just cute but not over-acting. There was a story. I had my say about the song here: Second Confession. The flower boy concept, well, I commend your stylist for not making ya'll look like wearing curtains or table clothes. I know its the clothing trend now~but yeah, ya'll carry it, 
You boys never fail us. All we want is you having fun in your perfs. And you always do. I remember when you were promoting the Press Play album, the WOW and 사랑밖에 난 몰라 were so much fun to anticipate. I mean, your every perf has something on it. New twists that shows how comfortable you guys on stage. I'm looking forward to your promotions for Second Confession ~ this is such a cutsie-sweet song that had all melodies melted, so I know you guys will have some extra fun in performing it. (lotsa "FUN" word on it. LOL)

This really made me want to see you guys perform live. That Here with Me perf and this song motivated me to save up for you and really see ya'll this year. I know I will. :)

AND YEAH, MY 'DUMBO' thanks for tweeting every morning. :)
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"He's saying its a pic of a swollen 'dumbo' in the morning. Not changsub." trans by @keumbeum0816
 
 

BTOB (비투비) - 두 번째 고백

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Can I start from the END? Ahhh, I guess it doesn’t matter.

You guys started teasing with the “doodoroodoorodoo” part and it initially made me sigh. I didn’t jump around like an excited kangaroo but don’t take it bad. The effect of just the teaser was really, really calming. I like it. We noonas liked it.

I posted this yesterday, not for prediction, but more of hoping. Thank you. Thank you for making it true. The vocal line in perfect rhythm and harmony. Ilhoon's rap (verse1) was light, not his usual 'too arrogant' rapping voice. And yes, our dear Peniel's lines in English~ so nice to hear it. AND! HEOTA HEOTA! Welcome back, Heota. 

GIDDY MELODIES ALL OVER THE WORLD. :)

Ofcourse, I just have to~~~MY CHANGSUB. Forgive me, I cannot only spazz about you. Ya'll in the vocal line did a really good job. Complementing each other's voice...no need to do those high notes, it was just perfect. And I love how you (Changsub) and Eunkwang's voice follow each other. Even Hyunsik and Sungjae, dear boys, goodjob. *sobs* ~ I can just imagine you guys doing that “doodoroodoorodoo” part, with your smiles and all. I can spazz all day even with just your humming.

Everything was balanced. I’m no expert when it comes to music/song technicalities but wow, as a listener I love how everything blended. From their voices, rapping, to the beats, music and my head bobbing along with it. Sweet.

Now, I NEED TO KNOW WHO EFFIN' WROTE THIS SONG ~ AND GOOD JOB FOR THE MUSIC. LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE MV ~ :)

*I know I have thousand more to say but not now. After the MV release I'll be more "talkative".
두 번째 고백 (Second Confession) / (English translation:  pop!gasa)
Today is a very important day
It’s the day when I give my second confession to one girl
I am going to find her once again
Will she accept my heart?
I feel good today for some reason

I threw away all my pride for this second confession
Though I have so much to say, I’ll keep it short
I will change and improve so from today and every day on
I want to have a great love like Gyon Woo and Jik Nyu^

For you, I stay cooped up in my room, practicing my confession
I practice singing so I serenade you
Even if you fall, get up again, don’t worry, have courage
I write an awkward letter and buy a big bear doll

The times we used to love, those dream-like times
I can’t forget any of those times

All day, I only think of you, I stayed up all night again girl
My heart feels frustrated on this sleepless night

* How are you? I guess you’re okay
Day by day, I am drenched with your memories so it’s hard
If you will come back some day, there won’t be any tears – my second confession

I want you back baby I swear it’s true
Won’t ever make you jealous, I’ll make them jealous of you
Come back to me, for eternity
And take a listen to my 2nd confession please

You and me, now we’re facing each other from across the street
What to do? It feels like my heart will explode
Someone please send my love through Cupid’s arrow to her, save me
Oh! It’s green light!

Can those times come back?
Will you be able to be with me again?
The restaurant on Garusu Street, breakfast at Nonhyun-dong
I want to taste that alleyway kiss once more

All the hard times are all days I regret the more time passes
I want to turn back all of those days

All day, I only think of you, I stayed up all night again girl
How about you? I want to go back to you

* Repeat

I’m not afraid of other people’s eyes – second confession
A serenade for you – second confession

Throwing away my pride to ask you to come back
I’ll be your shoulder strap and you can be my backpack

I want to go back to those times but why don’t you know my heart?
If you will come back some day, there won’t be any tears

* Repeat

Peniel's tease. That kid the perv. nipslip then crotchgrab. aigoo. :P
 

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